I think a update is long overdue, sorry guys, ive been pre-occupied with food. I hate myself, my big butt and my tree trunk thighs. But i tell you what i do love, the sun. It may be gold, but damn that sun is shining this makes me happy, my SAD may finally fuck off for abit and let me take control once again of what i eat!
Im prepared for the future. Got my little big pancake recipe, which i will NOT be making again as far to many calories for my shrinking waistline.
350g self raising flour
1 tbsp white sugar
1pinch salt
3tsp baking powder
1 egg
300ml milk
Makes the thickest lushest batter ever, add more sugar if youve got a sweet tooth, you will need to cook them on quite a high heet with some oil or butter in the pan (i would reccomend olive oil, much better for the waist line)
Back to my old ways.
So ive started abusing the laxatives again, i had totally forgotten my love for the little yellow sugar coated pills. They cause me pain, but the also cause me majoy shrinkage. Its gross to talk about these, but i get such a rush of shitting - ahaha!
The restriction has started again, i havent got a meal plan, but im just scared of going over 150 calories, maybe thats mad. I beat myself up yesterday for eating a fat free yoghurt, i started at it for about 30 minutes, slowly disecting spoonfulls of it in my mouth, YUCK! Eating is so un-feminine i acutally hate it! My goal weight is 70-75lbs, i am totally not going to get here before i got on holiday if i carry on eating about 150 calories. I think chew and spit is going to be called back in! Hello guys, i need your help!?
<3 Mee
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