So its time to get back to reality. Ive put on weight, not one or two pounds, but 7lbs, since my lowest weight of 83lbs (im sure you can do the math on that) After taking pictures today, examining myself in the mirror, pinching my fat and having a long makeup-ruining cry i decided to take pictures. Pictures used to keep me on track, i took pictures everysingle day, i seems to be loosing like a motherfucker back in those days.
Its time to face facts, im not going to get skinny from eating 1000cal a day, yes maybe seriously slowly, but who the hell said i wanted to loose is slowly. Its time to lock myself in my room again like back in the summer where my ed started and slowly begin to fade in the distance again on a diet of fruit and veg. Im going vegan, only for a few months, damn i need some frikin calcium - im not stupid enough to think im superhuman and need nothing. I need alot, i am currently giving myself a lot. I no longer want to give myself alot.
I thought i would share my pictures. To the girl who asked my weight - i would share it, but i not the kinda person who likes to give it out and then be told my own bmi, 'yeah thanks for working that out for me love, and making it your 'goal-weight! - this isnt a personal attack on you btw.
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